3 days...

Well it is 3 days to go till I begin the Buserelin injections! I cannot quite get my head around the fact that it already begins this week! On one hand it feels as though we have had a 6 month break rather than 3 months but on the other hand it feels as though it has come round so fast! 

So this is a rough outline of what the Buserelin will be doing. Firstly as I said I am now doing the long protocol instead of the short. This is something new to me so part of me will be nervous when I take Buserelin on Sunday night. This first stage of the cycle is called down-regulation. The Buserelin will be 'switching off' the ovaries this will stop everything from working. I will then have a scan at Nottingham to confirm down-regulation. Once this is confirmed I can start stimming with the Menopur (growing those little eggs!!) 

So bring on Sunday! I am all prepared for menopausal-like side effects from the Buserelin (I feel sorry for Jay!) Lets get this cycle rolling! 

New beginnings...

I have just been reading back through my blog and smiling! The things that I wrote, the thoughts that I had have changed so much in just a year! I have been transformed through this journey!

It was put on my heart back in 2011, the very year I discovered the Huntington's disease that I wanted to be a mother. I couldn't tell you why I felt this! My plans had been very different to say the least! I was going to go to University and become a primary school teacher then I changed my plans again to become a midwife. 18 years old was the pinnacle time for me, I got engaged, I was doing my A-Levels with plans for a career, I discovered dark secrets that had been lurking in my family. It was as though a spotlight was thrown upon my life in 2011 and in a year my life which I thought to be so whole was obliterated. Yet as I look back at it now I see that it was making way for a new life! 

I wrote this blog to document my journey through IVF/PGD but I have been on a greater journey since 2011. At the end of 2011 I first discovered God. The Huntington's disease, the IVF/PGD, the family issues have all been part of a bigger journey - my journey with God. And I am AMAZED at what He has done in our lives!!! 

When I wanted to be a mother in 2011 I did not know about the HD. I did not know that I would be having IVF/PGD which to me was only something that couples who couldn't have children would do. That feeling that I had in my heart I know now was God. I wasn't a Christian at the time it was going on but I know God was calling me to my purpose because only months later did I find Him! It was all like a very confusing puzzle at the time and I kept being given random pieces of the puzzle which at the time didn't make any sense. 

The title of this blog post is 'New beginnings', I felt something telling me to write that. In the 3 months break we have had since our second cycle of IVF much has happened. 

The most significant and important of all is the new Church we are now at.  One Saturday night Jay and I were talking about Church, we were due to go to Pitsford Church the next day for the Sunday service. Jay mentioned to me that he felt prompted to go back to the Kingdom Life Church. A year ago we had gone to a service at the Kingdom Life Church as I had been going to their healing rooms. It was certainly a wonderful experience and remained with us both afterwards but we still continued going to Pitsford Church (where we got married). Yet I didn't feel as though I was growing as a Christian and Jay wasn't feeling any closer in wanting to believe in God. 

So two months ago we went back to the KLC (ironically at exactly the same time we went there last year) for a service and decided to settle there! I have been transformed at KLC and I know it is where God wants us to be. 

2 weeks ago I went for some prophetic encouragement from this young man named Paul. He told me that he had a picture in his mind of me running a race and that I had overcome many obstacles. I was running hard now and nothing was in my path and I ran over the finish line... 

I stood in shock before him as I knew that what he said was completely true. Paul didn't know anything about me and had never met me before. I couldn't have asked for better encouragement at such a time as this! With the beginning of a new IVF cycle this Sunday coming I keep in mind the finish line...